You make me so sick and tired
Tired of trying to figure out
what I have to do
or say
or be
to get you to see me
to get you to choose me
to get you to want me
like I’ve wanted you
for as long as I can remember
Yes, I’ve wanted you
I’ve longed for you
I’ve waited for you
I’ve been on the lookout for you
like the Father for the Prodigal Son
But you never came
You won’t come
You’re not coming
So now watch closely as I
vomit you up
spit you out
and flush you down the toilet
to be lost forever in the Big Apple’s
Bermuda Triangular sewer system
right where you belong
Listen carefully as I lift my voice with Alanis:
“You’re uninvited.”
You think me undesirable
Unworthy
You make me feel invisible
Untouchable
Just plain ugly
Like I reside on my own private leper colony
Damn you
Mil veces maldito
But I can’t help wanting you
It’s how I’m wired
It’s how I’m cursed
I will want you as long as I breathe
but I don’t need you
I only think that you’re essential for my happiness
but that’s a lie from the Father of Lies
You are neither oxygen
nor water
nor the living God
You can’t make me whole
You won’t satisfy
And I am through waiting for you with baited breath
Did you hear that?
I just exhaled
I am so done with you and your kind.
Hasta nunca